For the Love of Music

Bohemian Rhapsody

The vibration of the seats and the rumbling of the Dolby Digital sound. That is something I will never forget. It was an experience like no other and I have you to thank for that. The excitement in the pit of my stomach, I almost felt nervous when the movie began. Hot tears welled up in my eyes, about as salty as the huge tub of popcorn we split. I’ve never felt so elated in that way in my life. It makes it even better because I got to share that moment with you, Pops. I always feel a sense of importance when I am around you, I just never want to disappoint. When Freddie Mercury made his appearance, jumping up and down, shaking his hands to amp himself up to play Live Aid, I felt it too. I never felt so connected to a character in a movie until this one. His emotions were addicting, just like his personality. I felt like we were there in the crowd, feeling the rush of every single emotion put into one. I have to say, of all the movies in 2018, there is none that could beat Bohemian Rhapsody. “Money may not buy happiness, but it can damn well give it!” Freddie is right, because the gift you gave to me to go and see this movie gave me so much happiness and I want you to know how much I appreciate you because of that. I play Queen at least once a day ever since we saw that movie. Alexa has a great speaker, but it sounds even better coming through the Sony speakers you gave to us as a gift. I love sharing the love of music with you. If I had the money and the time to pursue the hobby you cherish so much, I would. One day, I will. It’s funny how sometimes you don’t realize how you can impact someone’s life. From the day I met you for the first time, you were just so likeable and I’m so glad my Mom finally gets to experience true happiness because of you. I’m glad I’ve become your step daughter and we get along so well. So Pops, thank you. Thank you for coming into my life, sharing the love of music, spending quality time with me, because damnit….”I want it all….”

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It’s the Most Wonderful Time of the Year

It is, isn’t it? It seems like something just clicks inside of me and my “Christmas Spirit” is released upon the Earth. I sometimes wish I could always feel the way I do at the end of the year. I don’t know if it’s all the cozy decorations. I don’t know if it’s the Christmas songs and rejoicing of the baby Jesus. I don’t know if it’s the kinder spirited people that are around me. I have honestly not been able to figure this out. I feel more at ease, calm, comfortable even. It’s supposed to be the most frantic and hectic time of year, right? Nope. It doesn’t have to be that way. Maybe it’s because I’m a diagnosed bipolar, my mood just completely flips and I’m more tolerable, I guess. Whatever it is, I like this me. I want more of this me. The one who is dancing and singing with my son in the living room. The one who is putting on the pot of coffee, making cheesy eggs for Eddie, and popping a bagel in the toaster. The one who is constantly doing and feeling accomplished, but knows when to take a break and spend quality time with our son. The one who has an hour of story time and Eddie excitedly picks one book after the other, eyes beaming at me and holding my hand as he turns the next page. This is the woman I love. This is the me I always want to be. I’m going to make a little vow to myself here and now. Betsy, you are good, kind hearted, and a damn good mother and wife. You be you and let no one take that happiness away from you. You’ve got this, you know you do.

Heading Home

I feel like our time was here and gone. I’ve had such a wonderful time being here with my Mom in North Carolina. It’s so beautiful and cold and I want to move here so bad. I shouldn’t complain, I have a cozy home to go back to in Florida and a husband who is going crazy without me. Listening to the happiness and excitement in his voice made me feel so good. I can’t wait to feel his warm embrace and those sweet lips pressed against mine. I am so thankful to have a husband such as Jonathan, he is my world.

I think Eddie is excited to go home to all his toys and his own room. He keeps saying he wants to go to Eddie’s house! It makes me light up to hear him say that. We do so enjoy these wonderful visits with Na, but it’s always nice to go home to your own things and comfort. I really do miss my Rigby, our sweet sweet husky, he’s my walking buddy.

I’m excited to get back to normal and of course start decorating for Christmas. I am super excited to take down the Halloween decorations my husband refused to take down while I was away, and get us into the correct season. He better get ready, Christmas lights go up next weekend! Eddie is going to have so much fun helping Daddy outside with the lights, I just know it. He’s old and big enough to do that now. I swear, where does the time go? I’m really going to cherish these memories and sweet little moments in our life. I’m excited to get out the new camera Mom gave to me to get some great candid shots.

Here’s one for the books!

(Eddie and Na. Eddie says, “Na, I’m coooooold!” 😆❤️)

Just Another Marvel Monday…

Have you ever had Publix Peppermint Stick ice cream? I’m just sayin’, this stuff is highly addictive and loves the shape of those thighs.. I don’t know what level of “basic” I am, but I’m pretty sure it’s the “Peppermint Season” one. I’m like a level 100. So, let’s just say this is my absolutely favorite time of the year. Besides all the hustle and bustle of Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, I’m actually pretty chill. I’m cold, that’s what I mean, I’m cold.

As far as worrying about how I’m going to get Eddie super awesome new toys and all of that, as my husband loves to say, “We’ll cross that bridge when we get to it.” Oh if only that were the truth, my love, if only.. I keep asking little man what he would like from Santa this year and I’m honestly getting nothing. I understand, he is only 3 and probably has no idea what there really is out there quite yet, but it’s always the excitement of “The List.”

I remember when I was younger and my Mom was always one of the home room Mom’s, (like super cool, right?) In Kindergarten I remember we had to color a big Santa head and the beard had those huge, bold long lines for us to fill in the top 3 things we wanted for Christmas. If I’m not mistaken, there are a couple things I could have possibly asked for. Those include; Teddy Ruxpin, Toby Terrier, Camp Site Barbie (I hated dolls and girly stuff, but I thought I’d give it the old..uh..Kindergarten try?) and probably a computer game of some sort, I believe Toy Story was all the rage at the time. Can you believe they are coming out with a 4th one Summer 2019, mind blown. Anyway, Mom came over to me and being the sweet and sensitive Mom she always is, wrote out my list for me. I know, spoiled then, spoiled now. The way I want to raise my boy. I want him to know, Mommy ain’t playin’, I’ve got you son! I won’t ever forget simple memories like that, only wishing I could go back and truly cherish them for as long as I could.

Dang you Peppermint ice cream, why did you do that? It’s those cool minty bites that just bring me back and it’s the best kind of back there is.

Before I head off to dreamland, I do want to interject how truly honored I am to have appreciated the work of Stan Lee. Spider-Man was one of the first Super Heros that I felt a connection to… Not as of late, I’m feeling like The Flash times 10 chasing Eddie around. I want to give my sincere respect to a man who did great things and lived his life doing what he enjoyed most, creating, and doing that until the day he passed at the ripe old age of 95. Uncle Ben’s got nothing on you buddy. To this day, Jonathan has your caricature hanging in our memorabilia room, signed by you. He was the first one to introduce me to comics and the amazing men and women who designed them. Thank you for your service.

Ten To Be Thankful For

  1. Our Father in Heaven.
  2. My wonderful husband, Jonathan.
  3. Our beautiful red headed fox, Eddie.
  4. Rigby, our goofy Husky.
  5. Autumn weather.
  6. Eddie randomly grabbing my face and saying, “I wuv you Mommy.”
  7. Making late night bologna sandwiches for my hungry fox.
  8. Visiting my Mom in Concord, NC for a couple of weeks to enjoy family and the colorful scenery.
  9. Being apart of P31 Ministries Online Bible Study and belonging to a wonderful Bible Study Group within it.
  10. Waking up every morning thanking God for a brand new day to make amazing things happen.

 


I feel like I don’t take the time to sit and be thankful for the good that is in my life. I always pray about what I need help with and what needs to be done, etc. etc.. I want God to know I appreciate all of the good things he has placed in my life. I am trying to be more positive and see the good in everything. Sometimes it is very difficult when dealing with finances and stress and making sure everything runs smoothly in our lives. I’m so happy I have a family I can count on and that I’m sharing my life with my best friend.

I’m really hoping as this blog goes on I can open up a little bit more. I hate feeling vulnerable and it’s always been a problem for me. I guess no body likes to feel uncomfortable, it’s not something we look to achieve. I want to be an open book and share my story, what I’ve been through. So much of it is not pretty and I’m surprised that I’ve come as far as I have in this life. I only hope I can continue to grow in the right direction and be the woman I know I am and can be.

I am strong. I am beautiful. I am intelligent. I am a daughter of God. I am thankful for it all.

(Our Thanksgiving wreath hanging on our mantle, “Give Thanks in Everything.”) #Thankful

Why Am I Awake?

I always pick the most ludicrous times to start something. My little fox is soundly sleeping next to me, sideways, of course. I’m two inches from the edge of the bed and all I can think is, his little snores are just too cute. It makes me appreciate these little Mom moments that came with such a beautiful gift from God. I’m looking forward to the journey a head and I hope you will get excited with me. I’ve got a big heart, a lot of stories, and a knack for some juicy details. Of course, some days may seem just a bland and sad sack of mundane human emotions, but that’s life in all its glory. I’m not the most interesting person on the internet, but I sure do hope to share some laughs, embarrassments, not so great times, and the love that unfolds through this little goofy family of mine.